I'm Asking

I knew you two weeks ago. But you've changed my feeling. You've made my heart beat twice faster. It's weird maybe. But it's true. I'm not a liar. IT'S JUST TWO WEEKS AND YOU MAKE MY HEART BEAT TWICE FASTER!! can you imagine it ? Yeah , I know it looks like soo impossible. I know , if you know about it. You'll laugh aloud in front of my face, you'll think this is just a joke. But no.

Every night for that two weeks, we had a "nice" chat. although I was so busy, I always tried to online just to have that "nice" chat :') and you did it too . you're also online and always chat me first. I felt so glad in that time. But unfortunately, both of us don't know each other. Then, I opened your pictures. I watched it, and in the morning. Intuitively, I saw you. How happy I am!

But two days ago, when we had same extracurricular, you saw me. But in that time, I wasn't in good mood. It was because of YOU always stay close with RDW. In simple words, I was soooo jealous. So, when you greet me, I did something bad to you. And I'm sorry about that. So sorry :( I was embarrassing.

Then, I said sorry to you. You've already forgive me but.... ukh. -_-

Till now, you don't chat me again. You don't chat me after you saw my face and my attitude. I'm ugly. I know. I'm temperament , I know.

But now I know, I understand.

I.LIKE.YOU more than you know . I.LIKE.YOU more than you think . I.LIKE.YOU more than everything . that's all .

WHY ?!

God, I ask you, why ? WHY ?

I want to feel that feeling. I know, now you give it to me. You make me fall in love, after a year "love" has lost from my mind, my heart.

I'm really thanks to You for giving me a chance to fall in love. But, WHY ?

You make me fall in love, but then, you are the one who break my heart.

It's so sick, God. I know you know. But I don't understand. WHY ?? You let me feel this love. But, you also break me down.

First, you make him go away from me. And can't meet me anymore :'(

Then, you give me another. I think he's good but the truth is, HE'S NOT.

I don't exactly what's wrong with me. No one love me. Everyone leave me alone. I don't wanna be left :(

God, WHY ??

I just wanna be loved by someone special. I just wanna feel love to someone special.

But I don't find him yet. What should I do ?

I'm tired of always waiting. Honestly, I'm afraid God. So, afraid :'(

I've tried to regard all is fine. But I can't if I do this all the time. He broke me even he doesn't be mine yet. Moreover, I don't know whether he LIKES me or not.

(: intan, intan, intan :): Kegalauan

(: intan, intan, intan :): Kegalauan

Kegalauan

gue bingung . gimana bisa gue ngerasa spesial tiap lo nge-sms gue , padahal gue bukan siapa-siapa lo . begitu pula lo , bukan siapa-siapa gue .

bahkan , gue belum liat lo , dan lo belum liat gue . pokoknya lo sama gue tuh belum know so well deh . padahal kita ada di tempat yang sama tiap hari . ukh!

tapi gue gak berharap apa-apa , semua yang lo bilang itu cuma kata-kata . sekali lagi , cuma kata-kata .

gue nggak nangis . sumpah!! gue nggak nangis , gue cuma sedih dan bingung aja sebenarnya lo itu gimana.

gue suka lo ? probably yes , probably no . gue nggak tahu . gue galau . masalahnya lo cuma kayak khayalan di mata gue . nggak nyata , tapi sebenarnya ada .

gue ngerasa jadi ombak kalau baca kata-kata lo . besar di tengahnya , tapi hilang kalau udah nyampe pinggir pantai . maybe it will be much better if I don't know you anyway .

Tentang Sahabat

Aku punya sahabat. Kami semua berdelapan.

1.       Arum Fitriana

2.       Aulia Fitriani Khaerunnisa

3.       Asrina Enggarela

4.       Dyah Titisari

5.       Intan Khoirun Nisa (It’s me)

6.       Oxa Ligyan Tintani

7.       Radena Jessica Manurung

8.       Rose Widanti Sugiyanto

Aku mulai bersahabat dengan kurang lebih 1.5 tahun yang lalu. Memang belum lama, tapi sudah banyak hal yang aku dan mereka lalui bersama. Suka dan duka kami lewati, saling berbagi, saling menyayangi.

Aku menyayangi mereka. Tidak. Aku sangat amat menyayangi mereka.

Mereka sudah menjadi bagian dari hidupku. Mereka adalah salah satu alasan mengapa aku bisa bertahan dari masalah yang melanda diriku (ini benar. Aku serius). Mendengar tawa mereka, rasanya aku juga ingin tersenyum. Mereka selalu bisa menghiburku. Bersama mereka, walaupun sedang dalam keadaan paling sedih sekali pun, aku pasti bisa merasa jauuuh lebih baik.

Mereka semua mengajariku banyak hal. Mengenalkan aku pada hal-hal baru yang belum pernah aku rasakan sebelumnya. Persahabatan. Ya, mereka sudah mengenalkan aku pada sesuatu yang disebut persahabatan. Bahkan tidak hanya mengenalkan, mereka memberiku persahabatan itu sendiri. Dan aku sangaaat berterimakasih untuk itu, kalau ada yang lebih baik dari terima kasih, pasti akan aku ucapkan untuk mereka.

Aku sangat berterimakasih juga untuk Tuhan yang sudah memberiku sahabat yang hebat, yang sudah menerimaku apa adanya.

Seperti kata salah satu dari sahabatku, Radena. “sahabat memang tidak ada yg smpurna, tetapi shabat itu menyempurnakan hidupku yang tidak smpurna”